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No matter how far along I get in life, I'll always refer to myself as "That chick that grew up poor in the drug-filled streets of Port Arthur, Texas." Always a bad ass!

Right now, I'm going through a top-down transformation. I'm starting with my hair - taking it from processed to natural; and so far I'm loving it. Get updates on my process on newtonatural.com.

Monday, May 31, 2010

Who can I run to?

I pride myself on being the person that others can turn to when they've been backed into a corner. I'm Ms. Bailout. But after awhile that's a really exhausting position to play. Not because being there for someone else takes a lot out of me, but because it sets me up to look for that person that I can turn to in times of need.

Basically, it's me and Jesus. Me and Jesus. Everyone else is just hype.

I'm frustrated. SO frustrated. I just feel like I spend all my time thinking, "What can I do to make life better for the kids?," "How can I make things easier for Baby Beast?," "How can I encourage my nieces and nephews to go farther."

Well, today it's Baby Beast. How's he gonna just back out on me again. . as usual?

Aaaaaaaaaaaargh!

2 comments:

  1. nice to know you, and glad to find such a good artical!.........................

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  2. I don't usually read the articles I post once they are up. They are my way to vent, so there's never a purpose to pick up that emotion after I've expelled it.

    However, I've re-read this one, and realize that I need to recant. Baby Beast came through for me with following colors.

    I needed time, and he gave me time. I needed to feel more connected to him and he's embraced me in every way.

    I feel secure that in this life I have another human being to help me carry the load: My Beast.

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