I pride myself on being the person that others can turn to when they've been backed into a corner. I'm Ms. Bailout. But after awhile that's a really exhausting position to play. Not because being there for someone else takes a lot out of me, but because it sets me up to look for that person that I can turn to in times of need.
Basically, it's me and Jesus. Me and Jesus. Everyone else is just hype.
I'm frustrated. SO frustrated. I just feel like I spend all my time thinking, "What can I do to make life better for the kids?," "How can I make things easier for Baby Beast?," "How can I encourage my nieces and nephews to go farther."
Well, today it's Baby Beast. How's he gonna just back out on me again. . as usual?
Aaaaaaaaaaaargh!
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I don't usually read the articles I post once they are up. They are my way to vent, so there's never a purpose to pick up that emotion after I've expelled it.
ReplyDeleteHowever, I've re-read this one, and realize that I need to recant. Baby Beast came through for me with following colors.
I needed time, and he gave me time. I needed to feel more connected to him and he's embraced me in every way.
I feel secure that in this life I have another human being to help me carry the load: My Beast.